On My Knees

The band, Seryn, has a song called On My Knees. These are the full lyrics:

On my knees I can see,
Where my heart needs to be.
When this life gets to me,
I'll be found on my knees.

A song with simple lyrics, but filled with so much truth. On our knees is where you will find us today. Our hearts are hurting, but we know our God is bigger than all of this. So often I forget to go to God in prayer when life gets to me. Yet things are often so much clearer when I simply change my viewpoint.

I hope this song can awaken something within you as well. (As a note, the last half of the track is instrumental.)

Holiday Greetings

Well, it's a little late, but we want to say Happy Holidays to everyone. Thank you all for your prayers and well-wishes after our last post. We have enjoyed spending our holiday with family, but there is definitely a sense of uncertainty hanging over our lives right now. Our Little Man is so loved and even received some Christmas gifts of his own. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

Please Pray

I don't know what else to do right now, but to ask you to please pray.

Pray for political leaders in all nations.
Pray for wisdom for those leaders and for the government officials.
Pray that our son will not be a victim of political backlash.
Pray that whatever God's plan, he will protect our sweet Little Man.
Pray that we have the courage to press on no matter what.
Pray that our hearts will not be hardened by this turmoil.
Pray for my hurting and angry mama's heart.
Pray that we will continue to trust God's control.
Pray for our precious boy to be surrounded by love.
Pray for all of the other families who are just as confused and panicked right now as we are.
Pray for all of the children, worldwide, who are hurt by the decisions and actions of the adults around them.
Please pray.

There's not much to say, but that some laws are being considered that would directly affect our adoption. There is a possibility that we might not be allowed to bring home our son. I am struggling with hope today.

"Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying." Romans 12:12

Regular Programming

Well, we're home and definitely back to regular programming. Today I thought that it had been over two weeks since we got back, and Drew corrected me to say that it has only been 10 days.

It feels like so much longer!!

Everything is the same. We work during the week. Hang out with Sherlock in the evenings. Make dinner. Watch TV. Life group on Wednesdays. Church on Sundays.

But everything is also different...We love a precious little boy that doesn't live with us. We pray for him by name at night. We show pictures on our phones to everyone we meet. Days are calculated by how much closer we may be to going back to see him. We talk about and plan the future considering what our son will like and enjoy. We can picture his laughter filling up the house. We imagine the sound of his footsteps running down the hallway.

Only two stockings this year

This journey has already been such a blessing. Our lives are so much fuller now that we have met our Little Man. God has already used this experience to teach us in so many ways, and we can't wait to see how Little Man will help us grow and learn as time goes on.

 

Here's what I pray for you: Father, may their love grow more and more in wisdom and insight -- so they will be able to examine and determine the best from everything else. And on the day of the Liberating King, the day of His judgement, let them stand pure and blameless, filled with the fruit of authentic righteousness that ripens through Jesus, the Liberator. All this I pray, with a view to God's ultimate praise and glory. - Philippians 1:9-11 (The Voice translation)